Finally Part of the Club
I need to do something.
Anything, really, at this point would be fine. I find myself so overwhelmed and upset and irritated and frustrated and so many other synonyms of those words already stated that I feel the need to vent and express and.. and.. I don’t know. What do I do when I get like this?
Oh wait, I don’t get like this. Lord only knows why but I seem to be that girl who’s always happy – no I mean it, I’m always happy. And even when life is getting in my way of living my own, I can always find the silver lining and make it work.
Not this time.
God has broken me down so far this time that I don’t think I’ll ever fully recover. And I think I’m okay with that. I’ve lived my life so blissfully shallowly that it will be nice to know that in six days, weeks, years, I won’t be ok – not really. This is going to stick with me. I will no longer be the girl who’s never been hurt and never had her heart broken and never felt remorse and never been denied something she truly worked her hardest for. I will have something to say I experienced and didn’t just forget or push away (usually the case).
And you know what? It feels horrible.
This can be a start of a new beginning for you. A break through. You’re not meant to live the life you were living before. God has much more more in store for you then what you have been giving yourself credit for. Reach out…HE has his arms wide open..
Whenever your down you know I’ll believe in you